Vulnerability is not a weapon. It is not a shield, it is not anger, it is not forceful. Vulnerability is like water, like nature, like spirit. It allows for all things, including pain. If you live open, you will feel pain. And you will feel joy. And you will never know quite what you will feel from moment to moment. Vulnerability offers a lifetime of surprises. Whatever the moment shares with you, you will live it and feel it: the beat of your heart, the rain on your face, rejection from a friend, the smile and stare of the passerby, complete uncertainty, your soul alive and smiling within you.
Broken happens: relationships to rides, bones to dreams. No matter how hard we try, sometimes things fall apart. At some point, it's time to let them. It's time to let the parts of your past that went off the rails rest on the hillsides and meadows and ditches next to the tracks. Wildflowers will grow there. Saplings will shoot up. Birds of the air will use their branches for a respite. And the sun and the rain and the moonlight will warm and cool the earth where those mile markers in your life remain.
Somehow, some way, the heart keeps beating, almost against all odds ... against the weight of the world; your soul longs for lightness, not the grainy, sloppy, muddy weight of humanity.
You and I are weaker than we want to admit yet stronger than we can imagine. Humility and dignity manifest when honesty and faith -- like rail and nail -- merge together. Then life gets back on track.
Eyesight gets fuzzy in middle age, but not hindsight. Hindsight progresses over time from 20/20 to 20/15, maybe even to a fighter-pilot-like 20/10. Learning from experience is good, but what's also clear is that hindsight is like a wine bottle with just enough contents to fill your glass one-quarter of the way; you get to taste the wine, you just can't relish it or make it last.
Hindsight lets you see a course of action that might've brought about a better end, you just can't enjoy the result.
Leave hindsight to sports-radio talk-show hosts.
The best course of action to take in a given situation isn't always clear. In fact, sometimes it seems like there isn't a "best" option (even after weighing all of your options). Humbly trust in who you are. Think and act with integrity. Be human, and understand that the right course of action may also be the most difficult course to tread. Life is messy that way, it tests character that way.
Make your choice, move forward, look back only long enough to learn what could've been done with more calm, more peace, more kindness, more love.